So, I try to make an effort to remember little pieces of me that make me, me throughout the day. Those tiny, minute things that don't really matter...but, really they matter a whole lot because YOU care about them and they make you feel a certain way.
What makes I me me? Besides my title? Well....
I love my favorite movie...True Romance. When I watch it I feel creative. The music, the filming...everything. Its so good. My other favorite move is Moulin Rouge. The truest love story + musical? Couldn't get any better.
My favorite songs also make me me. Songs from years ago that bring you directly back to where you were when they meant so much to you.
Sia, ohhh so good. And so insanely special to me. I feel like I own her music in a way. Its like because her music is so important to me I should have the rights to it ha ha...anyone else ever feel this way? My other go-to music is Wait What. Heard of them? Its just a shmushed up XX plus Biggie... try em out.
My favorite thing to do when I'm alone....watch a documentary. Any. And I mean about anything, really.
about farming...yes
about the science of human emotion....double yes
about elmo......sure
about gangs....great
watch a documentary about filming a documentary.....duh!
Without this documentary obsession I certainly wouldn't be myself.
I also do a lot of dancing around the house, too. Dancing and singing and handstands and stuff like that. Right here in my living room. When I was kid I was stupidly good at handstands....I'm not so much anymore, but who says I cant get better?
And singing....I make up a song about everything. I remember when we were mad at my mom growing up she would always sing funny things and we couldn't be mad anymore. This infuriated me and made me laugh all at once. I guess its one of the traits I carried over into my life as a mom. I'm pretty sure both my kids and husband think I'm nuts and/or annoying for this. I don't care though. I'm still singing about opening the the fridge door.
But more than anything else, I meditate. Without it I would surely go nuts. 5 minutes here...20 minutes there. If I get an hour to myself hidden away in my closet, I'm lucky.
I've found out that if give myself these breaks and do things regularly that make me feel like myself, then I'm a better mom at the end of the day.
So, whats this really about? I guess its about balance. A never ending battle in this story I call my life.
"Live, travel, adventure, bless, and don't be sorry."- Jack Kerouac
thrilla in manila
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ReplyDeletebalance is hard. but too important to go without. in the same way babies and husbands can "unbalance" a girl..they also totally balance us too, right?
ReplyDeleteps i may be calling your hair girl..my hair is in need of some serious TLC. without me having to think about it too much. lol.
exactly! i think my life will balanced the day I get a personal assistant. bahaha
DeleteBeing a mom to a 3 yr old girl is amazing, awesome and so forth.. But therr are.times when I want to pull my hair out and/or have a relly big drink lol.. I totally understand what you mean about having balance and staying the person you were before having kids. If you do t you lose yourself and not the best mom you can be. I think it is so funny that you sing about everything because my dad use todo that (and still does) would drive me nuts and I catch myself doing that about the most random things ie getting dressed, putting the groceries away weird I know but hey what can ya do lol. I have really enjoyed reading your blog. Oh and my daughters name is Zoey kinda but not like Zuri :) Glad I came upon your blog.. Now gonna go follow you on instagram in a non weird stalkerish way lol
ReplyDeleteisnt it funny we turn into our parents!? and thanks for stopping by!
DeleteYeah no problem. I really like your blog and how you write! Yeah my mom used to say 'cant wait til you have kids' I totally get why she said that lol.. I used to be a wild child and it is def coming back to me haha
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ReplyDeleteI love your blog. I LOVE True Romance and Moulin Rouge as well. I still prance around and sing every song (I have them on my computer) when I clean or just when I'm bored. (I usually do all parts haha).
ReplyDeleteAnd True Romance is just genius and adorable and we had the song at the end of our wedding ceremony.
Anyway you have great words or wisdom and are inspiring. :)
This post just made me feel so much better about my life. I'm a 23 year old full-time nanny and I mean full time. 10 hour days at a minimum, 16 plus sometimes. I watch the most precious 16 month old boy and 3 year old boy, but truth is my desire is to be a pre-k sped teacher, not a Fulltime mom, except I'm not the mom. I don't get the unconditional love or have every special moment to make up for the hard ones. I find myself never looking nice, barely relaxing, and really cravig a large glass of wine at the end of the day. Your post just helped me so much, to know the little things I can do to still feel like myself cause I know my life will never not involve small children. It's just what makes sense in my life. Your blog is amazing!
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