fml

mmmm hmmm.
this is what my last two weeks has felt like.

but, yes, I am dramatic.

I cant get into everything just yet...oh boy, do I want to though.

Lets just say we've spent a months income on lawyers and court fees, and I've never, not EVER, expected to take this route with anyone I've ever come across. Nor, did I know what it was like to feel pure hatred like I do now.

I seriously hate a person. Have you ever really hated anyone? Well its terrible. Ive never in my life hated someone until now and let me tell you, its not a pleasant feeling.

Its more consuming and draining and saddening than anything else. It sucks.

Most of all, the worst part of all this is its timing. I had just come off the vacation of a lifetime with a burst of new energy and life. I felt so good about everything and everyone around me and felt like I wnted to better myself and my family....then WHAM! Everything changes and I'm having a daily meltdown/pity party for myself.

The good news is today has been the turning point. I've cried enough, sworn enough, and been in enough bad moods for a lifetime. I've let this situation and these people control me and somewhere along the line I've become a "victim". Ewe. I hate victims. Seriously, I despise victim people who are always whining about everything happening to them and their sucky attitudes. Sooooo, I woke up this morning and changed my attitude. And suprisingly, Ive had a wonderful day.

Hmmmm...imagine that.

I'll of course spill all the dirty details when this mess is over with, and believe me...you'll want to hear them. And, no, I wont feel bad for it. In the mean time...pray for my little family that we can make it out on top of this mess...even though you dont know what this mess is yet.