i think i am dying

...of HUNGER!

Today is has been the first day of the notorious "master cleanse"...you know, the lemons and real maple syrup with cayenne pepper? ya, that's the one. i hate it. i love it. i cant make up my mind...I'm too hungry.

I keep reminding myself that this is good for my body and hopefully it will flush out all the toxins and sicknesses i keep getting. i swear...one morning i wake up with croup (which i thought only babies could get?) and the next morning i wake up with a sinus infection and the next morning i wake up with..eww i wont go any further for your sake. But you get the picture. My poor body needs this.

My saving grace has been my mom. she's decided to join me this digestional rebirth as were now calling it. Every time i have had an outburst of starvation and started yelling " screw it! I'm eating vegetables! They're just damn vegetables! I'm eating!" she was right there persuading me not to throw out my whole days worth of work. so thanks mom....for giving me this body and for helping me "clean house" today too. you're the absolute best.

Personal note: You have now realized your own personal hell is a life without food. So, me...Weslie, when you start eating again (on Wednesday..ugh) appreciate the food you get to eat and make it healthy food. k? k.