I'm retiring...

...my pants.

I couldn't possibly love Modern Family anymore than I already do.

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Curse the day Zuri puked into my laptop!

But I don't curse this face. I miss this face. And I miss blogging too.

Basically the last 7 weeks have consisted of adjusting to working again and learning how to become a teacher, and growing this LITTLE GIRL inside my belly.

LITTLE GIRL! what!? I was 150% sure that this little guy was a guy. And even still when I say my prayers at night and I'm going through my list of things to pray for, I always catch myself saying something like....."we pray that this little baby girl......or boy...... will develop fully, blah blah blah" haha. So, I'm thinking I still subconsciously believe its a boy. I was THAT sure she was he.

But in all honesty, I couldn't be happier about another girl entering our family. The thought of two little girls running around together and being there for each other the rest of their lives bring a very hormonal tear to my eye. Its what I wanted more than anything, and I guess I just didn't think I would get what I wanted. But I did! And we're thrilled to say the least! Bronson now says he wants all the rest of them (1 or 2 more or maybe 7) to be girls too...I wouldn't mind that either.

Speaking of Mr. Christensen... He's still out in LA. It sucks. No sugar coating this. We both hate it more and more each week and I can feel my self getting more resentful as time goes on. But I am pregnant, and this pregnancy short temper/impatience-ness was expected. I'm sooooo ready to all live under one roof again and it will probably be sooner rather than later. Hooray!

But I kinda hope you guys haven't forgotten about me. I wouldn't blame you if you have though. I have been M.I.A. for months it feels like, and Ive realized this is a somewhat common trend for me....I take a leave from reality and hibernate usually 4 months out of the year every year. Pregnant, or not. This, I guess, was my 4 months of hibernation and I'm ready to wake up and get up!

all the many reasons I dont feel like blogging. but I will anyways

-I left my camera back in Zombie Land. The city also known as LA. And who likes to read blogs without pictures?
I politely stole this term (zombie land) from Cody, Bronson's now roommate, because nothing could fit the place any better. And the more and more time I spend back home makes me question how I lasted so long out there in the first place. You can say I have come to a definite decision that city living, although fun to try out, is not for me......ever. again. (maybe I shouldn't generalize this to all cities though? But zombie land Los Angeles is really not for me.)

-I'm still sick. Yes I am 13, almost 14 weeks along and this sickness spell really should be over by now. But its not. It may not be as bad as previous weeks have been for me this time around, but since when is throwing up only 2 times a day vs. 9 times per day ever good? Vomit is vomit and any amount of it at all just sucks. I'm sorry, but I will not consider myself well until I can brush my teeth without heavily dry heaving.

-Miss ZuZu lady and my mom got the flu at the same time. Then I got it the day they got better. Saddest thing ever. Zuri layed in bed for 3 days straight like a dead fish. She wouldn't even sit up to throw up...which meant mounds and mounds of laundry, and so many sheet changes that I'm still afraid to put a new set on either of our beds because I'm anticipating another attack. oh! And while laying flat on her back, my tiny 26 pound ball of lovechug managed to projectile vomit directly into my open laptop approximately 2 feet away from her. The laptop died almost instantly, I'm sure of it. I'm glad it was a quick death and the Dell didn't suffer much at all probably. I, on the other hand, am suffering greatly from the loss.

-I'm sorry all I talk about is throw up. But its consuming every aspect of my life currently.

-I've been studying like a mad woman to take my Instructors test for the state of Utah, and happily passed! hooray! Now I'm switching gears and getting all my lesson plans in order and stuffing my brain full information so I, hopefully, am useful to all of my upcoming new students. My mom and sister, and me and zu are leaving for a girls getaway to Cancun next week and the day after we get back I start my first class as a teacher. I'm prettttty dang excited. About both, duh!

-I haven't seen Mr. Christensen in going on 5 weeks now. Miss Lady and I are flying out Monday to spend 3 days with him though! Finally! But its been pretty tough without him. It makes me feel like I have nothing to share about with people when I don't have him around for some reason. booo. Although, having family and friends again is the best thing ever! Nothing replaces him, but I have to say I have the best type of distraction. I've missed day to day, non-baby, human interaction for 6+ months living away from everyone, so I'm soaking up all the people time I can get. Also, it helps that there are incidents like this one day last week I came home from work to find my room clean and laundry done by my mom. what!? SO AMAZING! Shes seen first hand how awful I've been feeling and just decided to do a little extra to make my life easier....and ohhhh how it does make my life easier! Plus I haven't cooked a meal in weeks. I mean WEEEKS!
There is always good mixed in the bad, and the bad just makes the good even better. So I'm happy.

So, there it is. Reasons I don't feel like blogging. But I'm confident this dry spell will end and I will feel healthy again some day, and maybe I'll even buy a cheap camera at Wal-Mart. And just for the record...I'm completely aware of how pessimistic I've become. I feel it in my bones even, but I'm working on it.

Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down

Have you ever heard this? She's the girl from Phantom of the Opera and I discovered that I loved her about 2 years ago then, rudely, forgot all about her. the live version is better than this one even... Im mildly obsessed.

Another current obsession: GAGA. ooooo la la. I didnt see it coming and then all of a sudden I watched Born this Way, and the next thing I know Im googleling birthday and favorite color. ha. P.S. have you seen her with Andersen Cooper? Pure entertainment in my husbandless life right now. Love her

My little girl isn't so little.

So earlier today I sent this picture to Bronson to show off Zuri's new favorite fashion "must have" item (can you guess what they are?).....and he didn't know it was Zuri in the picture at first glance. WHAT!? He thought it was my 7 year old sister, Haidyn. This almost made me cry because as I looked at the picture again I realized she really does look old. She IS old. She getting tall and lean and tells me to leave her alone now whenever I'm hovering =(.

But then we went to the McDonald playplace 10 minutes later and she peed her big girl underwears while playing somewhere in the huge structure. haha....I was happy in a sense that it brought me back to reality and quickly reminded she's only two and a half and is still my baby who has accidents afterall. She was so upset that she couldnt play in her soaking wet pants that I took her to the bathroom, got her nakey, then tied a jacket around her waist and called it skirt. I just might be labeled bad mother for this one...? Oh well-she had fun!

Oh! and some good...well GREAT FANTASTIC FABULOUSLY MORE WONDERFUL NEWS! ......I got a job! And a job I've always dreamed for actually. I will be an Esthetics Intructor starting April. Im so excited to teach that I can't sleep at night because I constantly am thinking of lesson plans and activities that the students will (hopefully) love. Plus, its been the godsend of a distraction from focusing on being sick 24/7. The end is nearing though. I just feel it.

Im having another baby

The new munchkin is due to arrive October 4th! Everyone in the world already knows so we just decided to stop keeping a secret and let the cat out of the bag. Im 10 weeks and feeling sucky as exepected, so my days consist of laying down mostly and when I get up..I throw up. Its great! Im also 100% sure all my muscles have atrophied and my esophogus is surely going to disinigrate if this sickness does not leave me within the next two weeks. I'm hopeful!

Yay for little Christensen rugrat #2!