What's been going on?

Well, let my I phone tell you.....

This little girl eats. Only carrots. Only.

This little girl keeps growing.

She loves preschool and telling me what to do...all day long.

Oh ya, we saw this guy one night...

Mr. Christensen is so handsome so I had to throw him in....

Remember how I said only carrots?.....I meant it.

6 months @16 pounds. Chubba wubba fo sho

Zuri has let me know that she wants to be in movies when she grows up....

....so she got to be in movie. Coming out this year.

Ask and ye shall receive.

Want a thought provoking quote for the day? Here ya go:

“Some things you’re not letting happen right now because the timing isn’t perfect for you. Some you’re not letting happen because you are very aware of where you are. But all things, as they are happening, are happening in perfect order. And if you will relax and begin saying, “Everything in its perfect time. Everything is unfolding. And I’m enjoying where I am now, in relationship to where I’m going. Content where I am, and eager for more,” that is the perfect vibrational stance.”
Abraham-Hicks

Hello world....

Where have I been, you ask.... I've been here in my house. But more than that, I've been in my head. And searching my soul.

 I don't think the timing of this is coincidental either. It seems that with every baby I have (which are only the two....but two outta two means something) a life altering event happens to me. I come to a place where I have to either grow and get stronger or crumble and give in. Thankfully, after a lot of hard work and serious soul searching I think it's safe to say I've come out of it a better and more knowledgable person.

I want to share one thing I've come to know in the last 5 months. Awareness is powerful.

 I'll say it again...

 Awareness is powerful.

Come to know yourself... Your whole self. The parts you put on display and the parts you shove into the deepest darkest holes in your spirit. Acknowledge the good and the bad and don't beat yourself up for either. Know what triggers you have and then dig deep and acknowledge why certain behaviors, or words, or actions trigger you the way they do. Why are you the way you are?

 I think that I thought really delving into to myself would be scary because, in a sense, it would mean I would have to change.... And if I change then it means my children's life changes, my husbands life changes. Our families life changes. I wasn't sure if I wanted anything to change.

 But then I didn't care... I felt pulled into myself. I didn't have a choice anymore and so I dove. I dove head first into my soul, heart and head. I dove into books, into other peoples stories,I dove deep down into my past, into my relatioships... I became consumed.

 And then something happened. I felt lighter. I FEEL lighter. Knowing myself thoroughly and committing to myself to always strive to align my personality with my soul has lifted a burden off myself that I honestly wasn't even aware I was carrying.

Arewareness doesn't have to mean change.

So don't be scared of it. Ignorance is not bliss. Not at all. Awareness is a life of more understanding and peace. I have more empathy and compassion. I'm more comfortable and accepting of my self and I really do love myself more than I ever have before. And when you love yourself you open yourself up to even more love. Its good... Real good.

So there's my advice for the day. Take it or leave it, but I had to share.